The Space Between

For those that have been following me from the beginning of this blog, you’ll probably know that I previously mentioned being an auntie to two kiddos, a wonderfully brave, precocious 10-year-old girl Nevada, and an equally precocious and sweet 6-year-old boy Cohen.

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Photo credit goes to their mom and my sister 🙂 – how cute are they!?
Nevada has always been a performer and loves to sing, she recently auditioned for a talent show and was one of the 12 kids selected to perform. She will be singing Fight Song by Rachel Platten in front of her entire school….is this kid brave or what?! Now I realize that I may sound biased because I am her aunt, but she is AMAZING! She is so full of artistic and musical talent for a girl her age and never ceases to leave me in total awe. I really admire her courage because it’s something that I definitely struggled with when I was her age…public speaking – no thank you!! So needless to say, I am a pretty proud auntie right now.

As adults we could learn a great deal from kids, their ability to not take life too seriously and how they are so capable of living in the moment without looking so far into the future. Yes, with age comes added responsibility and our outlook on life changes when we’re more in touch with reality, but as we get older it seems like we forget about what we need right now. There is this need to focus so much on a destination, and reach for something in order to feel whole only to be disappointed and let down if we don’t get it. It’s difficult to be truly happy if you’re constantly looking ahead for something that you don’t have rather than enjoying where you currently are in your life.

It’s easy to look at the big picture and see this life that you envision for yourself. As a little girl I knew that one day I would want a family of my own – ideally my 4-year-old self planned on marrying Jordan Knight from New Kids On The Block or Johnny Depp but that didn’t pan out 😉 … I am really working on trusting the “journey” (I’ve watched way too many Bachelor episodes!), enjoying today and focusing on the blessings that have come my way recently. I used to get myself stuck in this space between where I currently was and where I wanted to be, but everything happens for a reason…maybe in order to discover that reason we have to just be. 🙂

-Amy

In the end, she became more than what she expected.
She became the journey,
and like all journeys, she did not end..
She just simply changed directions and kept going.

– R.M. Drake

Thursday Thoughts.

So we have this one life, and it can change so quickly and drastically from circumstances you experience. It really puts things into perspective when you witness someone you love suffer without being able to offer anything but your unconditional love and support. My stepfather George, is currently fighting a battle with stage 4 cancer…and as expected it hasn’t been an easy road. He has undergone several complicated procedures, and has been fighting so incredibly hard the last year and a half. He continues to fight through the bouts of chemo and radiation treatments that prove to be both mentally and physically exhausting along with debilitating surgeries. One thing that is so inspiring about George though, is that despite the crippling effects cancer has had on him, he has not lost his sense of humour, nor his will to face this battle head on as best as he can. At the beginning of it all, he decided to start writing a blog dedicated to his journey with this very difficult disease in hopes to reach out to others who are suffering or for those that want to simply follow along and learn more about it. And what better outlet for him to have as George is truly one of the best storytellers I know…just ask him about the “hamburger” he had from a rural town in Australia 😉

George has yet to face his obstacles alone and has the support of his family and friends to give him all the positive energy and strength they possibly can. For those of you that are interested in reading his blog, feel free to take a look. I can guarantee you will find it inspiring even if you have yet to be affected by cancer in one way or another.

https://colontosemicolon.com

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I snagged this shot of an unsuspecting George 🙂
Sometimes as humans we take things for granted or sweat the small stuff far too often. I am still battling with this one and try to work at it a bit more everyday. Each of us struggle with our own personal woes but when do we learn that sometimes it is simply not worth the mental anguish that all too often consumes our minds? When do we decide to stop putting negative energy into moments we’ll never get to do over. We need to remember to be grateful, and honour this life of ours and not take anything for granted. Life can’t always be peachy but it can also be pretty great once we understand how powerful our thoughts and outlook on life can be on our existence. I think we are at our best and happiest when we realize that everything we need is what we already have. Happiness isn’t tangible, it’s a mindset, and that is something each and every one of us have the potential to hold.

-Amy

There’s nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be. – The Beatles

 

Follow Your Arrow

I’ve recently come to a point in my life where my give-a-damn is undoubtedly busted, and to be honest I couldn’t be happier…there’s something to be said for proudly being who you are, with zero exceptions. The feeling of the weight being lifted off your shoulders is almost instantaneous when you allow yourself to just live your truth. I am a people pleaser and always have been but in the past I allowed it to be a detriment to the person I truly was. I tried to fit myself into a mould that I thought would be accepted by my peers, and what I didn’t realize at the time was that I was creating a life not for myself, but for others. I continued to fall into this pattern until one day I decided to stop. I decided to be authentically myself in all it’s silly and ridiculous glory because seriously, we have one shot at this life…why base it around the opinions and judgments of others. Yes, judgment will always be a constant in life, it’s inevitable, but it doesn’t have to be something we project our energy into. I firmly believe that when you can accept that you may not be everyone’s cup of tea, nor can you please everyone, life becomes loads more peaceful.

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Well this is just adorable..

It is never too late to change the trajectory of your life if you aren’t content with where it’s headed. Do not succumb to excuses that can only hold you back such as age, feelings of inadequacy or fear. I no longer want to dread getting older, or feel afraid to fail, because it does not serve me and only creates toxic thoughts to potentially lose sleep over…ain’t nobody got time for that! Positivity is a mindset I’ve chosen to keep because there are things in life that we simply have no power over and cannot change, and I don’t see a purpose in fighting it.

Be proud of the person you are that you have worked so hard to become, flaws and all – because who would we be without em! I am proud of my strong-willed but soft heart, because it is a result of experiences I have endured throughout my life. Some may have seemed impossibly difficult to cope with at the time, but I think I knew in these moments that one day I would understand why they happened. Quite often I hear people say everything happens for a reason, I used to hear this statement and shake my head thinking how easy it is to utter these words but how much truth could there really be to it?? But now I can honestly say that it makes so much sense to me. With every hardship your strength is put to the test, and each time I’m tested I realize how much more resilient I become. We need hiccups every once in a while to remind ourselves that life can’t always be ideal and to keep on swimming. 🙂

“The things that excite you are not random, they are connected to your purpose. Follow them.”

-Amy

Always Take The Scenic Route

A couple of months ago I craved a getaway, an adventure of sorts. I began to research destinations with one of my sisters. We knew we would only be gone for a short time, and needed to take into account that wherever we decided on would certainly be a road trip! We came up with many feasible options but none that we were completely sold on. It was then that we stumbled upon Oregon – it was perfect! Beautiful, serene, relaxing and about an 8 hour drive from Vancouver, BC, where we live, which by our standards was doable. Our online quest for accommodation led us to a lovely little condo directly across the street from the ocean in Cannon Beach…SOLD! I packed a weekend’s worth of clothes, adult colouring books, a good camera and off we went!

My sister ditched her usual road trip Glee soundtrack mix (forever grateful heh heh) and agreed to listen to my Serial Podcast suggestion (which I highly recommend), but not before making me sit through Jenny McCarthy’s talk show on satellite radio – but if I’m being honest, I didn’t hate it. Couple of pit stops and some stale whopper chocolates later(they barely made it out of Walmart before I was seeking out the nearest trash can) and we were nearing Astoria. Considering I am a HUGE Goonies fan this excited me greatly, because for those that don’t know, Astoria is the birthplace of The Goonies. We were only passing through but managed to scope out some areas where the movie was filmed, including the iconic house – though from afar. Understandably, the owner doesn’t appreciate trespassing fans so if you’re interested in checking it out, it has to be from a distance!

We of course opted to take the scenic route from there and I’m sure glad we did because if we hadn’t, we never would have encountered the porcupine along the side of the highway – yes, my sister and I are an excitable pair and there was no chance we weren’t going to seize this opportunity and risk getting quilled for a couple photos. So we made a sharp u-turn, parked just close enough and treaded lightly to get a photo, which was also from afar – porcupines don’t appreciate trespassing in their territory either and we respect that. The scenic route tacked on more time to our drive but we didn’t mind, it was nice to be unplugged and not feel like we needed to rush. Life is busy enough, to be able to take our time and enjoy the drive was so necessary.

When we finally reached Oregon and I saw the ocean that I so vividly remembered from a trip I took with my parents over 15 years ago, I was overwhelmed with emotion because I just knew this was exactly where I needed to be, I needed this trip. Of course having one of my sisters by my side made it that much more meaningful. Oregon was like a dream..it was so surreal and even my camera couldn’t capture it’s true beauty – though I tried my hardest! My sister and I explored each day to the fullest getting our boots wet in the ocean, carving images in the sand with sticks that had washed up on the shore, eating glorious food and getting bitten by the same little a-hole dachshund (though he be but little, he was fierce – we had the puncture wounds and bruises to prove it!!). We spent the evenings colouring like the true adult children we are, watched Pete’s Dragon and ate some of the best pizza we’ve ever had. Oregon, you were good to me, and I can’t wait for the day that I can return! It was truly a trip for the books, or for a blog in my case 🙂

-Amy

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My First Entry! :)

Hello Friends!

I wanted to start the year off with something new, something a little risky, and something I’ve been contemplating doing for a while. So I decided to start this little blog here, and I’m not exactly sure what direction it will take, but considering I am a person with a pretty active mind, I thought, what if I shared some of it with you! Maybe it could help some of you along the way, or you can just follow me in my simple, a lot of times boring, but sometimes pretty adventurous life 🙂

I’ve always believed living life is about balance and it took me a long time to realize that it’s ok to say no to things that don’t serve you but to also be brave and take on things that might scare you a little, because quite often those are the things that fulfill you most. It’s completely ok to not have everything in your life figured out, so don’t let it discourage you from continuing to live your truth. You might find that if you sacrifice what is most important to you or try to race through life, you could really lose out on the moments that you don’t want to miss. We all have a purpose, we just have to figure out what that purpose is at our own pace.

This year I am opening myself up to new challenges and new adventures. So let’s see how this one goes! 🙂

-Amy